The Howard Family

I know I always talk about how I love being a mom on here, so I'm sorry. But someday I would like to look back at this blog and remember all the fun times I had being a mom to babies! Cause its no secret that being a mom is tough... really tough. Most of the time it is hard and stressful! But during those hard and stressful times its nice to kinda look at my life and realize what I am blessed with!
So the other day I was sick as a dog... don't really understand that expression, but I was REALLY sick! I had the worst migraine and was soooo nauseous. But Cason was off schedule )since it was sunday and we have 11 oclock church) so he wasn't having it with naptime... he layed in his crib talking to himself for about an hour, until I finally went and got him. I decided to let him sleep with me and I would nurse him to sleep. He fell asleep after about 5 secs. (He is my little cuddle bug... that kid will cuddle with you anytime of the day... and if he is tired and you are cuddling with him.. he will go to sleep so peacefully, and you can tell he just loves it) so anyway here I am sick as a dog, and here I have this beautiful little boy next to me sleeping so soundly, and even though I was so sick and just wanted to rest, I could not take my eyes off of him. I just layed there for about two hours just cuddling with him, and staring at his perfect face, thinking about how much I absolutely LOVE this little boy. he seriously steals my heart away EVERYTIME I look at him. I love him more than I ever thought I could love anything. He is my little mamma's boy! I seriously, no joke, cry probably once a week when I am looking at his sweet face and he is looking at me, because I know that in a very short amount of time he will be as big as his big sister, and will not just lay there in my arms, and let me kiss him for the hundredth millionth time that day. he wont need me as much as he needs me now. It breaks my heart to see him grow so fast! I wish that I could just press pause on the clock and have him like this for a long time!
And then I have this other little sweet baby. well sweet toddler. She loves to push my buttons, but I love everything about her sweet sassy personality! She has a mind of her own! She can be the sweetest most loving little girl. Probably about ten times a day, she tells me "I love you" it is usually when she has done something that she knows I am upset about and she is trying to lighten the mood. But I love it when she says it anways!
I truly love my kids with all of my heart! I didn't know a love could be so strong. I thought before I had Cason that I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to love him as much as I loved Riley.. and I was really afraid. But now that he is here I am amazed at how much my heart is capable of loving. My love has only grown EVEN MORE for Nate, for Riley, and now for my Cason! I love my family.
The other day on skype I was telling my mother-in-law!! (most awesome mom in law ever) all the funny things Riley says! And she suggested that I write them down cause I will forget them. So I really hope that a couple times a week I can sit down between nursing, cleaning, feeding, and kids napping, to write down some memories! And hopefully get my dang camera out every now and then and snap a few pictures.. poor Cason is going to be mad when he sees a million pictures of his older sister and only a few of him! Better get on that!!