Who would have thought that the simplest things in life is what brings me the most happiness. Like watching Riley get SOOOO BEYOND excited because I let her buy some candy at the grocery store. Or watch the look the Cason's face when he sees me walk in the room. Or listening the the funniest things Riley says... where half the time I don't even know where she learned to say it. Or having dinner on the table by the time Nate comes home. And just relaxing with Nate after we put the kids to bed. The most perfect of days seem to be the days where we do almost nothing, but play with each other, Read a million books because Riley is begging us to, Rocking Cason because he LOVES cuddles, having a family dinner where every one is happy.... I cannot get over lately, how much I absolutely love every little piece of my life. There is not one thing that I would change. I can't get over how lucky I am to be where I am in my life, and how blessed I feel to have 3 of the most wonderful human beings to be around every. single. day! I could do this for the rest of eternity.... and be blissfully happy!

Yesterday I saw a friend (Lindsay) at the park with her sister, they are so lucky not only to live so close together, but to be such good friends!
It made me miss my sister Megan so much. She lives in Texas with her three kids and husband. And it doesn't sound like they are coming back anytime soon. We have never lived in the same state since we have both had kids. And I often dream of what it is going to be like when they (hopefully) will finally move back and we can hang out everyday with our kids. And do fun things with our kids together! Or just hang out with the husbands! Go out to lunch, or have a girls night every once in a while.
I miss having a best friend I can count on, or talk to. Most of the time I feel like Nate is the only person I can talk to, and its nice and all, but sometimes you just need girl talk. And I wish I had my sister here so I could have that. I miss her like crazy!
So Megan, how about you just ditch the whole stay in Texas thing, and move back... I mean whats more important.... come on! hahaha
I love you Megan, and glad I am blessed to have a sister so non-judgemental, kind, and carefree as you! You honestly are the most 'go with the flow' person I know! Love you!

This is why I don't mind having a sick baby. Cuddle time becomes our daily activity. And honestly, you can't argue with that!
Even though housework gets pushed aside for a couple days, and Nate having to pick up dinner on his way home from work. It just means that I have spent my day loving me some Cason boy.
When this boy is sick, his medicine is laying on mommy's chest, in the yellow rocking chair, holding mom's hair, sucking his thumb, with my hand over his head-holding him close, and rocking back and forth. To him it is better than any type of medicine (that his 6 month body is allowed to take) can make him feel.

Today I was remembering back to when me and Nate first started dating...

I was so obsessed. I didn't want to admit it, I tried to pretend I wasn't, but I was, I was so in love with him.

A couple days after he moved here he took me to Tempe Town Lakes and told me that he wanted to marry me and that he would seriously marry me tomorrow. Dumb old me, I said that I wanted to date around and I wasn't sure what I wanted... Of course I knew what I wanted!

But in a way I am kinda glad it happened that way! Nate started "chasing" after me. He would call me during the day, and tell me he was thinking about me, he would text me, he would always tell me when we were together how much he liked me and the things that he liked about me! He worked hard to win me over!

Of course it only lasted about a week before I told him I wanted to marry him as well. But he didn't stop doing those things! When we were engaged he would always text me during the day and tell me that he couldn't wait till he got to marry me, or that we could finally just be together all the time, and he could wake up to me next to him! I remember getting butterfly's every time he would say those things to me.

I remember a while after we got married... I missed the excitement of first dating someone and being so excited to go out on dates with them! I missed the anxiousness of waiting to see him, or the butterfly's I would get when he would hold my hand!

But the longer we are married it seems the more in love with him I fall. With each new baby we have, our love grows so much stronger. He told me tonight that he couldn't wait to have another baby cause he is so crazy about our two now, that he knows how much his love will be with the next, and the next. And it is so true, when Riley came into our life my capacity of love grew so much! It was so much love that it almost hurts when you think about it. The kind of love that just the thought of loss causes so much pain that you can't hold back the tears. Then when Cason came into our lives, I looked at him with so much love. My heart had grown even more. Its strange how much my heart is capable of loving. And not only does your heart grow in love with each child, but your heart grows with love for your spouse. It just keeps growing.

This kind of love is fun, and its exciting!

Tonight I got the kids ready for bed, and Nate went and picked us up some food (this is our "at-home-dates")

After we ate, we sat and watched a movie, and Nate started to tickle my arms.... (my favorite thing ever).... and I got butterfly's in my stomach!

I love being in love!

I feel like I am living a dream. How could these two children possibly be all mine? How could I be so blessed to call them mine?

How can I ever express how much I love them.....
How much each one of them means to me.....

Riley is my friend....she is my best friend...
And Cason has stolen my heart from the first time I laid eyes on him, and does it everytime he looks into my eyes.

I will never let a day go by that I don't express my love and gratitude to my Heavenly Father for blessing me with these angels.

I am so blessed with healthy, happy, children, and I will cherish them for the rest of my life.

I am always so inspired by woman who have like 6 kids, and are always the first to volunteer to do anything! Like the kind of woman who if another mom has a baby, she is the first to go pick up her other kids and watch them for a day even though she has several kids of her own. Or finds out someone is sick, and is there that day fixing them a meal of cleaning their house.

I have always wanted to strive to be that woman. I have always wanted people to know that they can count on me to do anything for them even though it may not be convenient. Life is never convenient. There is always something going on. Especially with kids!

There have been a couple times where I have told Nate that I want to be this type of mom, woman, and friend. But then life gets in the way and an opportunity for me to serve will arise and something will be going on where I think, oh I can't this time, but next time something happens I can help this person, or do this (whatever it may be)

But today in Relief society we were singing the closing song. And let me tell you, when I started singing and reading the words, tears started streaming down my face. The ladies around me were probably wondering what the heck was the matter with me. I have heard this song, I couldn't tell you how many times, but the words were as sharp as knife, and I realized what the heck am I waiting around for? Why do I just say I want to serve others, and be there for others when they need help..... Why can't I just do it.? So my new goal, starting now, is to serve others, not think it, not say it, not attempt it, but DO it!!


Have I done any good in the world today?
Have I helped anyone in need?
Have I cheered up the sad and made someone feel glad?
If not, I have failed indeed.
Has anyone’s burden been lighter today
Because I was willing to share?
Have the sick and the weary been helped on their way?
When they needed my help was I there?

Then wake up and do something more
Than dream of your mansion above.
Doing good is a pleasure, a joy beyond measure,
A blessing of duty and love.

There are chances for work all around just now,
Opportunities right in our way.
Do not let them pass by, saying, “Sometime I’ll try,”
But go and do something today.
’Tis noble of man to work and to give;
Love’s labor has merit alone.
Only he who does something helps others to live.
To God each good work will be known.

Recently I have come across this blog.
This sweet family lost their daughter in an accident in 2010.
I cannot imagine the devastation. My heart aches for families who have lost a child.
It truly puts life into perspective for me.
I will hug my kids more and tell them I love them. And I will try and be more patient with them, because I would take the stress and mess than not have it.
I will try to document our life more, make funner memories, and write them down. I will pull out the camera more often. I will love them more.
I am grateful for the faith and testimonies of families like this.
They show such strength that I feel I could never have.

Now I need to go kiss my babies again while they lay quietly sleeping.

I have loved blogging lately.
Its kinda my escape from all the crazyness.
During kids naptimes or bedtime I love to sit here and regroup and think of all the positive things that have happened.
It helps me stay focused on the positive things of my day instead of the negative.
Writing my feelings down sort of recharges me as a mom...
I know that one day I will look back at this and remember how much fun I had being a young mom.
And I will remember all the hard times I had as well.
Cause lets be honest. Being a mom, wife, and homemaker is hard and demanding.
You never have time for yourself. By the time the kids are in bed then it is time to give your time and self to your husband.
Sometimes you just wanna crawl in bed and go to sleep, but you know that your husband needs your time and attention.
These past couple days I haven't so much as walked outside my house to see the sunlight with the kids being sick and all (and now I am coming down with it..yay!!)
So today, I decided it was time to get out.
I packed up my runny nose children in their p.j's into the stroller, put my tennis shoes on and went for a walk.
The sunshine and cool breeze made me smile pretty much the whole walk.
I love being outside in this kind of weather.
I went to take Riley to see her favorite thing... the horse on McLellan st!
Riley laughed and laughed.......until the head stuck his head right next to hers, then she said,"ok, bye bye horsey!!! hahaha she is hilarious! Last time Nate took her to see the horse, he said the horse stuck its head right in her face, and she stiffed up and pointed to Cason saying,(in a worried voice, "His name is Cason, His name is Cason, Look." hahah she was trying to point the horses direction over to Cason because she was afraid when he was all the sudden right next to her! She seriously says the funniest things!

I'm in major love with that girl lately! She is my BEST FRIEND!

Tonight, I kept her up past her bedtime, because she wanted to snuggle, so we laid on the couch and snuggled.... I loved it. I love her.

Had the funnest night the other night with Nate! Went to my cousin's wedding, which she was absolutely STUNNING!!! Her dress was to die for!
But me and Nate had such a fun time being with out the kiddo's.
We laughed our heads off most the night.
Mostly because Nate is a goofball, a MAJOR goofball.
He sometimes isn't even meaning to make me laugh, but just the way he says something I can't help but crack up.
I love joking around with him! He makes me laugh more than anyone else can.
He is pretty much hilarious without even trying...

Lately he has been so lovey dovey with me! I love it. My love language is definately affection! And he knows it. We think its funny to kiss in front of Riley because she is starting to get really embarrassed when we do it, and she usually says hey, mommy, no snuggling with daddy, so then we kiss some more.
Tonight Nate was telling me how much he loves me, and the reason he always kisses me in front of the kids is because he wants them to know how much he loves me. Isn't that just the sweetest thing ever! I may have teared up when he said that!
I love that man more than I could ever imagine loving someone.
I am so blessed to have him as my husband. Its kinda crazy how perfect we are for each other. There really isn't one thing that we don't agree on when it comes to parenting, life, marriage and the gospel. He said that was one thing that made him realize he wanted to marry me was because he had never dated a girl where everything I believed in was exactly in line to what he believes. I love him soooo much! He is such a hard worker!
The other night I was thinking of ways I could earn money cause I wish he didn't have to work so hard and he could focus more on school and he said, I don't want you to work. I don't need you to work, I just want you to be able to be here with the kids, and not only be here but mentally be there for them as well.
I cannot tell you how much it means to me to have a husband who is willing to work 50+ hours a week on top of a full schedule at school, all so that he can provide and work towards providing a better living for our family. And so that I can be able to stay at home and raise our babies! It means the world to me.
I have the perfect husband! Because to me, the perfect spouse isn't literally a perfect person, because he is not perfect, and I am definetely not perfect, but he TRIES HIS HARDEST to be the perfect husband and a better person, and that to me is a perfect person!

One a side note...
So Riley is pretty much as sick as I have ever seen her.
she has and infection in both eyes...a horrible cough... horrible snotty nose, and a high fever!
Poor little girl!

The perk of a sick child though... Benedryl makes them calm and happy:) So I will take the calm and happy even though it means letting her sleep in bed with us while she kicks us, and waking up a couple times a night with her to give her a bath because her eyes are stuck shut! Hope she does get better soon.... Cause there is nothing I hate more than seeing a helpless child because they don't really understand why they are feeling so sick...




Just my cute babe's:)

I AM GRATEFUL FOR A HUSBAND THAT LOVES ME.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR A HUSBAND THAT I HAVE MORE FUN WITH THAN ANYONE ELSE.
I AM IN LLLLOOOOOVVVVVEEEE.
THE END.

I don't know if I am ever going to be done having babies. I keep freaking out in my head that I am gonna have a million babies because how can I ever be OK being done having them!
I honestly do not know if I will ever be ok with it. I hope I will though, for my own sanity. Maybe just 3 more... I just have to convince the husband!
But isn't it strange how you can spend your day changing poopy diapers and nursing every 3 hours and cleaning up the messes your kids make and making food for them and yet through all of the crazyness you can't get enough of it. (Of your kids I mean) I defenetely have enough of cleaning sometimes!
I told Nate tonight as I was getting the kids ready for bed that I wish I could take a day off of being a mom. But the truth is that I couldn't be gone for more than 2 hours with out dying to come home and be with my babies.
It feel like I can't hold and rock Cason enough.
I can't kiss his chubby cheeks enough.
I can't laugh enough with Riley.
I can't read her books enough!
I just soak in all the precious moments I have with them, cause I know how fast it goes by.
So I have to tell myself to stop cleaning sometimes and turn on music and dance with Riley.
Or sit down and just relax with out feeling guilty and hold and rock Cason!
And be patient with Riley cause I am her teacher, and she follows my example... (Even though it is REALLY hard sometimes)
I wish I was a better mom sometimes but I know that I am doing the best I can.
And I love the crazyness being a mom brings!